We can only come up with one person we’d like to be the donor for our family… and we’re talking to him on Saturday. Assuming this is something he is willing to take on, this family may be closer than I originally thought. 🙂

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I’ve been in such a funk these past few days/weeks and I just can’t put my finger on it. Nothing is going wrong, there is no reason for me to be so…. ‘blah’

C and I got a new puppy, something we’ve always wanted.
We have a great apartment.
We have very supportive family.
I fall more in love with her every day.

Yet, there’s just something lingering that I can’t put my finger on. Financially, things are tight. We’re making it fine, but it’s definitely paycheck to paycheck and I hate that. I want to be saving, I want to have funds to fall back on in the case of emergency, but we just can’t save it. I made huge mistakes in my past in regards to money, and they’re all biting me in the ass now. C and I haven’t seemed to have gotten much ‘us’ time and it stinks. We’ve been going here and there, getting this done, picking this up, and it’s taking it’s toll on our relationship. Our house needs cleaned something fierce, but neither one of us want to take away from the few minutes we have alone together in the evenings to take care of that.

In addition, it seems like everything that anybody does lately gets on my nerves. Now, I’m not talking it just irritates me a little… It makes me so angry I just want to scream. The way somebody moves, the way someone chews, certain words someone might use – the simplest of damned things and I’m just over the edge.

My weight is so much greater than it should be for my frame. I’ve tried so hard since the beginning of the year to eat healthier, to get more exercise, but I’ve failed at that – yet again.

Something needs to change…. soon. 😦

Have any of you used a donor that you knew? One that you were friends with long before the idea of your current relationship and bearing children?

How did that go?
How did you ask?
What’s the relationship like between you and the donor?

So, since I can snap my fingers and make a baby appear and make our family complete, this shall do. Granted, it took a lot more than a snap of our fingers… lots of money, a couple accidents, and two cats that now hate us.  🙂   But, he’s so stinkin cute! Meet Clarke.

I’ve sat here and debated about how I want to introduce myself.  Do I want to do a quick survey of some sort that will answer the most common questions?  No, that seems to simple.  However, I’ve been known to ramble so I’ll try to spare you that pain as well.  I want to give you enough that you want to know, but not so much that there’s nothing else to learn.  (See, rambling!)  Let’s make this as quick and painless as possible, shall we?

My name is Melissa (Mel, Mo, MJ)… I’m 29 (will be 30 in August)… I have Achondroplasia Dwarfism… I have an amazing partner (engaged to be married in just a couple of months) named Chrissy… We live together in Hobart, Indiana… I work in the Mental Health and Substance Abuse field… We have two cats… We are both HUGE family people, which is what brought me to these blogs…

While growing up my mom (as most moms do) asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up.  To this day, the only answer that I can give you is that I wanted to be a Mom.  Now that I am approaching 30 that ‘biological clock,’ that ‘thing’ inside a woman that says it’s time for a child NOW, is screaming louder than ever.  It’s truly almost painful, how badly I want to have a child.  I came across one person’s blog (couldn’t even tell you where I started) and started reading through the list of the blogs they followed, which brought me to following all of you at this point.  Your stories inspire me; they reassure me that this is all possible and that it IS going to happen for us.

So, thank you.  Without even knowing it, you’ve opened up new doors and windows for me.  You’ve made me question things I hadn’t even thought about.  However, it’s also made me realize how blind I am to many things, so thank you for educating me as you experience the trials and errors in parenthood.

Please, follow me.  Help me.  Support me and allow me to support you.

We won’t begin the baby process for a few months, so you may have to deal with the boringness of my everyday life until it gets to the good parts.

I don’t want to be just another stalker on your pages, though, so I thought I’d let you know a bit about me.  Please, ask questions, make comments.  Just be gentle!  😉